Thought Crimes

"Thought Crimes" took a few years to pull together.

It provides a nice balance of personal and political commentary.

The lyrical content is always insightful (I think), but it doesn't get

in the way of itself like the songs on my first EP.
 

My personal favorites are "Bury Me", "Sibling", "Noes",

and "Amplified".

Lyrics

1. Cranium

Stand back

Don’t look at that

Face the other way

Or they might fight back

Don’t ask that

Don’t stop to chat

Talk like that

And they might attack

Don’t write that

Composition cutback

Words like that

Might attract blowback

Don’t fight back

The aphrodisiac

Info attack

But never look back

Strengthen

Strengthen your mind

They’ve taken

What we designed

It’s my my my cranium

Makes me

Not want to explain to ‘em

Why I

Stop racing or chasing ‘em

Why we

Erase and replacing them

It’s my my my cranium

Makes me

Not want to explain to ‘em

Why I

Stop facing or chasing ‘em

Why we

Erase and replacing ‘em

That’s it

You’re not worth spit

Words transmit

The bullshit emits

Don’t fake it

Don’t counterfeit

It’s not worth shit

But they worship it

No benefit

The goal’s illegit

Sit back and witness them get away with it

Don’t know this

They’re all hypocrites

And bit by bit

We’re all losing it

Strengthen

Strengthen your mind

They’ve taken

What we designed

It’s my my my cranium

Makes me

Not want to explain to ‘em

Why I

Stop racing or chasing ‘em

Why we

Erase and replacing them

It’s my my my cranium

Makes me

Not want to explain to ‘em

Why I

Stop facing or chasing ‘em

Why we

Erase and replacing ‘em

God witness

Close mindedness

Opened my mind

And now find this

This isn’t

The time for this

They’ve already taken

What we dismiss

And we just

Consume more shit

With no way

To dispose of it

That’s it

Don’t let them in

Shut them out

Cranium is in

Strengthen

Strengthen your mind

They’ve taken

What we designed

It’s my my my cranium

Makes me

Not want to explain to ‘em

Why I

Stop racing or chasing ‘em

Why we

Erase and replacing them

It’s my my my cranium

Makes me

Not want to explain to ‘em

Why I

Stop facing or chasing ‘em

Why we

Erase and replacing ‘em

Lyrics

2. Bury Me

Welcome to the real world junior

My main role is just to impugn ya

Take a look around at what’s new here

We could use a liar like you here

T-t-t-tap the feeder bar junior

Your w-w-w-working real hard junior

Just t-t-t-take a second now junior

Kneel down – feel that – you like that loser?

Bury me alive

I can’t sleep tonight

Bury me alive

I can’t breathe tonight

Suck it good – you’ll be the front runner

I’ll give you more – cause you’re a quick learner

You OK?  You look a bit thinner

Tap the feeder bar – get some dinner

We’re on a wicked witch hunt boy

We think you’ve done something wrong here boy

We need to know we can trust you boy

Now purge your soul for what we employ

Bury me alive

I can’t sleep tonight

Bury me alive

I can’t breathe tonight

One final last chance boy

Admit what you did – or be destroyed

We know you can feel the dread

Our words have gotten inside your head

Fess up – or this is not the end

Or maybe we can all pretend

You weren’t here when this happened

You’re not here anyway my friend

Bury me alive

I can’t sleep tonight

Bury me alive

I can’t breathe tonight

Lyrics

3. Sibling

Maybe I

Should have asked more questions

And Maybe I

Should have just talked less

Maybe I

Well you know the rest

Maybe you

You passed this test

And maybe I

Just lost the lesson

Amazing I

Couldn’t see the regression

Forced upon you

With your thoughts in recession

And we can’t even get

Mom and dad to listen

So crazy I

Couldn’t see your thoughts so cold

Thinking this is a phase

Part of how we get old

And I don’t even know

why I tried to keep hold

And we all tried to fit you

Into my own mold

Then again

This was part of your plan

Then again

You just couldn’t stand

This again

So I have to ask

Was it him?

Or was I just so mad

That I didn’t see

What was going on

I didn’t see

You in your thoughts withdrawn

I didn’t see

You until you were gone

I didn’t think

You’d be gone that long

This is me

Saying I know I’m wrong

This is me

Going on and on

You and me

We can right these wrongs

Maybe I

Should say so long

Go on take a hit

You’re scaring your mother

Take another hit

And bury your brother

Yeah maybe I

Should let you go

Maybe you

didn’t get that low

Maybe I

Reap the seeds I’ve sewn

Maybe you

Maybe you just don’t know

It’s crazy when

We can see each other

See our failures

And see our mothers

You save your brother

You don’t hate your brother

We can’t hate each other

Amazing you

Couldn’t see what I was saying

Amazing you

Couldn’t hear what I was playing

All these thoughts

I’ve been saving come forth

From my brain

Now I’m craving

A life for you

I can’t give you

So take a hit

It’s what you do

Take a trip

Where I won’t see you

I’ve realized

I can’t be you

I realize

What you’ve been through

Behind these eyes

I’m concerned for you

Behind these eyes

Springs a well of truth

The blurry streams

Run down my face

To the point

Where I can’t drive straight

If somehow

I could create

A replacement drug

Kill your pain and hate

I’d rest

In peace

While you plead

Your case

Go on take a hit

You’re scaring your mother

Take another hit

And bury your brother

This is not

Just a copout

These are not

My final doubts

If you could see

How I got out

Then you could see

How you will do without

Do without

25 years of shit

Do without

His hand on your dick

Do without

God, these thoughts are sick

Do without your needs to quit

Finally

You’ll release your hate

Finally

They can’t violate

You and me

It’s not too late

We can live a

New life we create

Pack it up

Put that shit down

Wrap it up

Before you drown

I’ll pick you up

Before you break down

Just give it up

Or you’ll be face down

Don’t take a hit

You’re scaring mother

Don’t take a hit

You’ll bury brother

I’m sick of this

And I won’t watch you smother

Me with this

You’re like none other

Believe me when

I say this brother

We will live

Inside each other

You can give

Me all your pain

And I’ll make sure

We both recover

Go on take a hit

You’re scaring your mother

Take another hit

And bury your brother

Lyrics

4. Abyss

James Madison:

“Of all the enemies to public liberty, war is, perhaps,

the most to be dreaded; because it comprises and develops

the germ of every other.  No nation could preserve its

freedom in the midst of continual warfare.”

Looting, Killing, Murdering Drilling

Who will foot the billing

for all the blood spilling

I’m not willing

to make it me

Coalition unwilling

Cause we’re not free

To realize a court declared right to privacy

So many people blind - that much I can see

People with small minds love atrocities

As long as they don’t have to take responsibility

God’s personal anointed crime family

That’s what we’ve become

As far as I can see

The empire’s weak

And it’s bound to fall

Next time you’re asleep

They’ll take it all

Tall or small

They just make a call

The next thing you know

Your family is all

Shackled up and trapped in

Some random encampment

What the fuck happened?

Never thought the wire tappin’

Would affect you, did you?

Never thought the random searches would affect you, did you?

Never thought the legislation would affect you, did you?

It was all just an act to disinfect you and trick you!

TRICK YOU!!!

GOD!  FUCK!  Can’t believe this shit!

I can’t believe we fucking let you get away with this!

GOD DAMN IT!  CHRIST!  No not like this!

We gotta get the fuck out – out of the abyss

Criminal acts

of aggression crack

under pressure & lack

understanding the map

Bridging the gap

Between these unilateral tactics

And defensive actions

That add to the madness

& breed all this crap it

Leads to inaction

& government expansion

A weak mental backbone

Lets you

bend to the masters

Our freedom is passing

Faster disappearing

It’s a cheap currency

That means NOTHING I’m fearing

You thought we were free

And you get NOTHING

It’s clear that you still pay your fee

And you get NOTHING

You shear your beliefs

And still get NOTHING

Seminal acts of compassion

Not blind aggression

Stop our recession

& halt the creation

Of these nation states

We’re now at the mercy of

Slaves of hate

While we create

A safe debate

Indoctrinate

Don’t communicate

Just alienate

Fill collection plate

& soon they will all capitulate

GOD!  FUCK!  Can’t believe this shit!

I can’t believe we fucking let you get away with this!

GOD DAMN IT!  CHRIST!  No not like this!

We gotta get the fuck out – out of the abyss

5. Jarhead

Lyrics

6. Noes

Just a little bit of

internal frustration

mixed with a little

bit of perspiration

With sweaty hands I reach to click

With sweaty palm I grab my

About to enter in a

World of failure

About to remind her

Just how I’ve failed her

How did I end up back here again?

When did my emotions end up so thin?

Now each justification

Gets shifty

Now each lust fornication

Feels empty

I know I’ll want

To take it back

Maybe this time

I won’t make it back

This isn’t a time

To think of that

This is when a mind

Silences feedback

Machine language now

Pushing me to lean back

This is not right

She knows I don’t need that

This is not the beginning

And is not likely the end

X 2

Yes, I’ve got your noes, but I’m out of control

X 4

This release

Has become part

Of daily life

right from the start

The pressure builds

The pressure stops

The pleasure fills

I squeeze my

I want to

Taste your Hell

If I burn my tongue

I’ll stand the smell

Of rotting flesh

Best laid to rest

I last confessed

And I’m gone still

Just a box

Plastic and wires

Metal parts

Now I’m a liar

This won’t explain

Why I’m obsessed

This won’t explain

Why we’re obsessed

The glare is soft

Feel the light

Climax of shame

Now I’m alright

She’s not to blame

I know she’s right

I’m not to blame

I’ll stop tonight

This is not the beginning

And is not likely the end

X 2

Yes, I’ve got your noes, but I’m out of control

X 4

The glare is soft

Feel the light

Climax of shame

Now I’m alright

She’s not to blame

I know she’s right

I’m not to blame

I’ll stop tonight

The glare is soft

Feel the light

Climax of shame

Now I’m alright

She’s not to blame

I know she’s right

I’m not to blame

I’ll stop tonight

This is not the beginning

And is not likely the end

X 2

Yes, I’ve got your noes, but I’m out of control

Lyrics

7. Dismember

They want to

Disarm the revolution

Claim

we harm the execution

Maim

Discard the constitution

Drain the wound

Restart the retribution

Shame on you

It’s hard

To compute this pain

They’ll start

To refute the drain

On your heart

Should not restrain

Dismember and end this reign

As we approach the capitol building

Disconnect the past

Discard your feelings

They’ve got none

So leave them reeling

Screaming, paralyzed, and bleeding

Mo more delays

This is it

Final solution

Dismantle it

Each appendage is

One branch of government

Subtract the cancer

Limb by limb

We need these answers

Now is when

The body politic is ripe

With decay – gangrene

Wrought with strife

They would gamble with your life

Discombobulate their life

The nervous system now in sight

The revolution starts tonight

We will

Dismember this body

Still

Can’t remember us falling

Down

And under this machine

Now

Dismember this body

Now we can

Disarm their reasons

Maim

Discard their treason

Shame

Retard this appeasement

Clean this would – restart the freezing

Reasons for what we do

They include

But aren’t limited to

A total refute

Of light and truth

Abominations

Without proof

Criminalization

Of our youth

Our realization

Countercoup

Our worst fears

Have all come true

Their worst fears

Will now come true

Sharpen the blade

Ever so thin

It will pass

Right through the skin

Bone and flesh

Hacksaw this

We’ve come here

To demand redress

If you won’t give

We will

Exact revenge

Be still

Your penance

Be still

A pound of flesh for everything

You kill

We will

Dismember this body

Still

Can’t remember us falling

Down

And under this machine

Now

Dismember this body

Lyrics

8. Deviant

One more day

No more delays

And if they don’t sing praise

I’ll change these ways

And if I don’t create

At least three strains

Then I haven’t done my job to enrage these slaves

I haven’t done enough to set the slaves ablaze

Enough to make the crazed slaves seize these days

The deranged way that the slaves pray these days

Makes them obey

Though they can’t see through the haze

I have been sent to displace decay

The decay that we gray with every day

It’s become an everlasting natural strain

Of disease so bad I fake the pain

I can’t help but think there’s something left to gain

If I rack my brain enough I might fan the flame

Out of the pan and into the fire

The same fire makes my flames rise higher

I’m a heretic designed to inspire

The desire of the slaves to rise higher

Only then they’ll realize they can’t buy the writer

The writer writes the lies that are sold to the buyer

T hen they realize it’s time to rise

Rise up and conspire to fire the liars

Fire the liars

One more day

That’s what I need to get out

One more phrase

And then it’s me you’ll need to

Lead the slaves

It’s time to rise and we will

Make our claim

I need just one more day

Like a plane wreck God comes down from on high

And he says follow us, but never ask why

Why God, why do you hide?

Why God, why don’t you look inside?!!!

Inside my eyes

There’s more to this life

I could never hope to find

Despite my cries

We walk around lost

Can’t see through the lies

No matter what the cost

I strive to be wise

Pick yourself up,

Grab for this game

With every pen stroke

I strafe my brain

With every breath

we’re against the grain

Every single line is

One piece obtained

One day of dirt

Nother day of pain

Without these fuckin’ chains

We’d never be the same

Full of all the hope

Full of all the shame

My crazed mind aches

To have a claim to fame

One more day will we remain?

A nation of fools who won’t take the blame?

I can’t stop until we refrain

From exploitation of our domain

One last chance to bleed the pain

One final crack on the veil of reign

One more day before I tap the vein

And inject a viral strain

To awake the brain

One more day

That’s what I need to get out

One more phrase

And then it’s me you’ll need to

Lead the slaves

It’s time to rise and we will

Make our claim

I need just one more day

9. Machine Break

Lyrics

10. Amplified

Why can’t

You listen to anything I’ve got to say

I can’t

Listen to anything you’ve got to say

We can’t

Listen to each other pray

The amplification of your words

Make me feel like you’re in my way

Something happens inside my head

Your words hit and weigh like lead

An interaction now I dread

Distorted words now so widespread

Open your mouth

Exit signs

Open my ears

Enter my mind

The process begins

I can’t find

A way to alter

This design

The maker

Built us all this way

Chemicals

Induce the rage

Just because you can’t remember

Doesn’t mean you weren’t insane

My words are like drops of rain

Your words are like shots of pain

Every effort to restrain

My hatred is all gone in vein

Amplify what’s in my mind

I can’t find the words behind

Distortion, static, thoughts untied

All your words are amplified

Amplified x4

Talk talk talk

Crunch crunch crunch

Data processed

Now expunge

You keep going till you’re lost

Now I feel like we’re both lost

Pass the logic

Pass the reason

Lack of knowledge

Back to freezing

Right the wrongings

Spite the feelings

Fight the longings

I’ll stop feeling

It doesn’t matter

How much sense

What you say

Makes innocence

Is lost today

And I resent

Your misunderstanding of this event

I won’t repent

How I feel

It’s not my fault

You don’t feel

You’ve been desensitized and now

You think that nothing’s real

But everything to me

Is everything to me

Your words don’t go through me

They’re stuck in circuitry

Iterations make them louder

Regeneration now they’re crowded

Operations make them louder

Fuck!!!

It’s all so loud now!!!

Amplify what’s in my mind

I can’t find the words behind

Distortion, static, thoughts untied

All your words are amplified

Amplified x4

Turn down the volume

I’ll try to listen

This music drowns out

Your every wish then

That’s where this chasm exists

And I’ll persist explaining this

You insist on pushing this

But your words just aren’t making sense

Push these buttons

Turn these knobs

Increase the static

Do your job

Of my youth

I feel I’m robbed

No chance to see

Through my own fog

Solve one or two

Of my own problems

Without your dis-

torted involvement

God wastes youth

Upon the young

You make it worse

Gnashing your tongue

I won’t stop

Until we’re done

You won’t stop

feeling outdone

You won’t stop

Until you’ve won

I think you de-

stroyed the lesson

Through your misuse

Of the language

Interact then

Leave me strangled

The message now

Decayed and mangled

This opera-

tion has failed

You grow old

I grow cold

To wisdom wasted

On the old

Amplify what’s in my mind

I can’t find the words behind

Distortion, static, thoughts untied

All your words are amplified

Amplified x4

Lyrics

11. Tear Up [Remix]

You want me to lose what’s true

But I can’t see through to you

Can’t erase what we’ve been through

So I pull the rug from under you

Don’t try to move

Don’t try to prove

To me why you’ve

Got none to lose

I’ll not be fooled

You broke the rules

You’re putting fire on my fuel

It’s inhumane

You’ve been so cruel

And I don’t need

Your miniscule

Explanation why we’re through

I can sense your plan to use

My own feelings

Up against me

You’ll repeat your

Crime against me

Pulverize the ground beneath me

Then remove the ground beneath me

Tear it up

The ground beneath me

I know where your truth lies

Tear it up

The ground beneath me

Let’s be my compromise

Now what’s left for me to say

Why stop here

Go all the way

There’ll be no reprieve today

With no ground

Beneath my legs

I can’t grasp the things you say

This one last lie you told today

Fucking move

You’re in my way

You won’t strip

My mind today

Tear it up

The ground beneath me

I know where your truth lies

Tear it up

The ground beneath me

Let’s be my compromise

Tear it up

The ground beneath me

I know where your truth lies

Tear it up

The ground beneath me

Let’s be my compromise

X2

Lyrics

12. Dirt

I

Want to see you hurt

In

My mouth I taste the Dirt

Filth

That surrounds your world

Got

To find another

…

I wanna let it go

But I can’t leave

Not while you still know

that I can’t breath

With you sitting there

Watching, waiting

Looking, thinking

Concentrating

Breaking me down

I’m in my place

The thoughts fill my mouth

The sweet and bitter taste

Slow me down

I just can’t stop

I can’t take the thoughts

I just can’t stop

It’s all too much

I just can’t stop

I just can’t stop

I just – can’t - stop

I

Have got to get away

Vi-

olate my mind today

Feels

Good to see you hurt

In                 

My mouth I taste the Dirt

I wanna spit it out

My mouth won’t open

Not while I still know you might come closer

To me sitting here

Wanting, waiting

Wishing, tasting

On one knee praying

Breaking me down

I’m in my place

The shit fills my mouth

The fucking bitter taste

Slow me down

I just can’t stop

I can’t take the thoughts

I just can’t stop

It’s all too much

I just can’t stop

I just can’t stop

I just – can’t - stop

I

Now live in this shit

The shit

That you left me with

I

Look up to the sky

The dirt

Covers up my eyes

I wanna wipe it off

But I cannot move

And I hope you know the hate I feel for you

While I’m lying here

Mind gyrating

Loving, hating

Searching, saturating

Breaking me down

I’m in my place

The thoughts fill my mouth

The sweet and bitter taste

Slow me down

I just can’t stop

I can’t take the thoughts

I just can’t stop

It’s all too much

I just can’t stop

I just can’t stop

I just – can’t - stop

13. Gay Message

14. Ethan 27

Lyrics

15. Monarchy

Everyone move

There’s a monarchy

On its way through

And we’re embarking

You know where to

I’m remarking

Liberty’s through

The overarching

Fear of this truth

Gives your heartbeat

Extra fuel

And now we’re starting

To see all this proof

Of the harm we

Let’em push through

Wars they’re starting

People they screwed

Citizens starving

Elitist point of view

Creating anarchy

Elite versus you

And nobody’s barking

The least we can do

Create a new spark

And make them follow through

On the promises

That they never do

And we fall for this

Obvious rouse

A hundred times more

Like the previous

Hundred times too

And a hundred more

We know he’s devious

But we still approve

So mischievous

But we don’t remove

Insanity just

Clouds the point of view

We can see

The fathers disapprove

So reveal this

Horrible truth

And repeal this

Overzealous rule

We’ll be free just

Focus on the cruel

Because they need us

I can’t believe

That you can’t see this

I can’t believe it

Cause we don’t need this

I can’t believe

That you won’t see this

We can delete

What we don’t need this

Monarchy

No I can’t remove

The hatred for

Him doing this to you

Memories before

This fucking fool

Leave me wanting more

But they take from you

And they’re keeping more

Not willing to

Back away from this

And I won’t refuse

Taking on any

Stupid argument

Because there aren’t any

Reasons to admit

We need this army

Of greedy idiots

Or a monarchy

Behavior not legit

My mind is racing

Thinking how to get

This disgraceful

Fuck – to – quit

And leave us happy

Dictating

Our own existence

We won’t leave

We won’t forfeit

Everything

They worked so hard to

Build from nothing

We can delete this

Tyrannical fiend

His crimes replete with

Murder – stealing

And coveting

Our neighbors’ things

We’re responsible

Can’t you see

This monarchy

Reflects things

Crimes to come

Family’s grieving

It’s not one king

It’s two machines

That control

Everything

They gotta go

I can’t believe

That you can’t see this

I can’t believe it

Cause we don’t need this

I can’t believe

That you won’t see this

We can delete

What we don’t need this

Monarchy